Sunday, September 28, 2008

1st Month Has Ended

The first month of training has now ended here at the Retreat Center. Time goes by so fast, it doesn’t feel like its been a month at all.

(Shifu's 5 Animal Sports Qigong DVD)

This past week after meditation we began training the first part of 5 Animal Sport Qigong. This is a set of medical qigong created by Dr. Hua Tuo nearly 2000 years ago. It is designed to improve health by stimulating the various organs of the body. The set consists of movements patterned after 5 animals (tiger, deer, bear, monkey, bird) each of which relates to one of the 5 elements (wood, water, earth, fire, metal) and 2 organs (liver and gallbladder, kidneys and bladder, spleen and stomach, heart and small intestine, lungs and large intestine). We have begun training the first part of tiger.

Meditation is getting pretty intense. I still cant seem to quiet my mind for long because I’m constantly flooded with thoughts. I thought meditation was supposed to be calming but its actually making me more emotional. After reading a section on the emotional mind in Shifu’s Tai Ji Theory book and talking to Shifu I’ve learned that meditation consists of 4 stages and the first stage is Self-Recognition. This is the stage where the mask that we all wear drops off and were forced to face and recognize our true self as it is. At this, the first stage of meditation, the emotional mind is excited and more active than usual. I’m definitely at this first stage.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Week 3

The 3rd week has ended here at the retreat center. The days seem to go by so fast and the weekend it seems is over before we know it or get a chance to really enjoy it.

During the week it was training as usual. My knee is getting much better so I’m able to do more and more as the days go by. It’s amazing what Tai-Ji Quan, Qigong and just the hard physical training in general have done for my knee. A month ago my leg was weak and I was just off crutches and I could barely walk. Now I’m doing things I thought would take months to build up to. I’m now able to walk normally without pain or weakness in my knee, I can maintain low stances throughout training and I’m even beginning to train ma bu (horse stance) on bricks like the rest of the group. I play it safe and face the railing to Shifu’s house just in case I loose my balance I can quickly grab the railing and save myself. I’ve had to do this twice which is less often than I imagined it would be.

I contacted my physical therapist early this past week and he says that I might be able to begin jogging or running and even jumping by as early as next month. This is great news for me and very encouraging. My physical therapist is located in Orange County Southern California so I wont know for sure what all I can do until I drive down and see him again and he checks out my knee. His name is Amit Gandhi and he’s been an awesome therapist. I have a follow up appointment in about 3 weeks so until then I’ll just continue training as I have been.

From the beginning 3 weeks ago we’ve done cinder block training where we throw cinder blocks into the air and catch them with both hands. We do 60 straight catches of straight up and down tosses and also 15x’s where we flip them forwards and also 15x’s backwards and then catch them. In the beginning this was very difficult for all of us especially on our hands. My hands were so torn up and even bloody…they still are but they’re now developing calluses. Now after 3 weeks of doing theses exercises everyday I’m now able to flip the bricks from side to side and even flips, length side down using only one hand. For me this is training that I really enjoy. Because of cinder block training and staff conditioning all of our grip strength is consistently and noticeably improving.

Something interesting happened this week. Everyday after we come out of meditation we train various exercises. For instance we rub our hands together producing heat and place them over our face and inhale and exhale. We tap our head, massage our knees, slap and massage our feet, and do various stretches and related qigong exercises from the 8 Pieces of Brocade. Although we had been doing these exercises for the past 3 weeks I did them not understanding there purpose. And so I asked Shifu why we do these exercises. Instead of telling me straight up, he told me to ask my shungdi (brothers) why we do them and then prepare a lecture to explain them. Ok great I thought. What have I gotten myself into? So over the next few days I asked my shungdi one by one and although we all had vague ideas as to why these exercises were done, none of us were sure…our ideas were all guesses, none of us really knew. So the day came and I had to give my lecture. It was…interesting…at the very least an interesting and educational experience.


(Giving my lecture...I had fun)

When Shifu gives his lectures and seminars he is entertaining, funny and also clearly explains what he is teaching and when he does not know something or have a deep understanding he has no problem coming out and saying it. Well I tried to take a similar approach. I had a great time giving my lecture and I had everyone laughing even Shifu…but overall I made a lot of mistakes and because I didn’t know the material I was lecturing about, I totally lacked confidence in what I was saying. I used the word possibly in describing every exercise because my explanations were only possibilities of what they may have meant. Well I overdid it with the word possibly. I succeeded in being entertaining but totally bombed in every other area. Shifu pointed this out. All in all I had a great time but in the end I felt kinda bad because I knew I could have done better, especially if I had really known and understood the material. Well a lesson learned for next time. Balance the lecture with humor, entertainment, confidence and a seriousness that comes with understanding…Just like Shifu.

This weekend Shifu went to San Francisco to lecture at a Qigong conference. This morning we all got up at around 4-4:30am, piled into the suv and drove Shifu to the airport...I drove. Man was I tired! All the guys and our 2 guests Jennifer and Stephan (Both from Quebec) all slept on the way...actually I'm not sure if Jennifer slept, but everyone else did for sure. After we dropped Shifu off all of us except for Patrick (he was sleeping in the car) went to a restaurant to have breakfast. Then we went to the mall and Borders for a couple hours. From there we went to Shelter Cove, which is beautiful and totally amazing. We even saw seals playing around in the water. I heard that there were star fish in the water so I searched for them but didn't find any. I later found out the tide was too high and had we gotten there earlier in the day we would have seen them....that's ok though, another reason to go back.

(Patrick takes a picture of Jon, Mike and Me scaling some rocks)

Something really funny happend to Ricardo today...well at the time it probably wasn't funny to him but looking back it totally was. Jon tells the story on his blog so if you're interested check it out. To give a hint it involves seagulls. Ricardo is a good guy and a great sport.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

4 Corner Reaction Training

Jon and Patrick, Me and Mike

Week 2

The second week of the first semester here at the Retreat Center has just ended. After the first week of training my body was sore and my mind was tired adjusting to the hectic schedule. Now I’m not as sore and I’m finding ways to better manage my time in our schedule to make time for rest. I didn’t sleep very well the first week. I was kept awake by thoughts of the journey ahead. I have been looking forward to this for so long. Now that I’m walking the path I am settling in and sleeping very well after hard training. I really like it here; nature, the people, the students and our Shifu, Dr. Yang. Its nice to be dedicated to a project with a group of like minded people who all share in the same dream. Our schedule for the past two weeks has been pretty much the same.

6:00-7:00am: Meditation
7:00-8:00am: Qigong
8:00-9:00am: Breakfast
9:00-11:00am: Tai Ji Quan (Form, Jing, Applications)
11:00-12:00pm: Chinese lesson
12:00-2:30pm: Lunch and Rest
2:30-3:30pm: Qigong Lecture
3:30-7:00pm: Conditioning/Reaction
-Run up and down the mountain
-Rope climbing
-Tossing and catching cinder blocks
-Staff conditioning (Strength/Endurance/Speed)
-Dan Tian Training with Staff and partners
-Centering (partner Exercise)
-Stances (6 Minutes Horse Stance on Bricks)
-Jumping
-Tai Ji Ball
-White Crane 4 Corner Reaction
7:00-10:00pm: Dinner and Rest/Study
10:00pm+: Sleep

We have a busy schedule of training, conditioning and studying. As far as the exercises go there are things that unfortunately I will not be able to do for a couple of months. Because of my ACL reconstruction during the summer my doctor and physical therapist have advised me not to do certain types of training. So instead of running up and down the mountain I walk instead. I do all my stance training on the ground because if I were to stand on bricks and fall, which everyone inevitably does, I risk re-tearing my ACL. The same goes for jumping. I cant yet jump until I get my doctors approval so all exercises involving jumping have to wait. I feel limited at times because of all these restrictions and sometimes I get frustrated and mad at myself for allowing my injuring to happen. I feel it could have been prevented if my mind had been more focused. But I look at the positive and take it as a valuable lesson learned.

Homework

Jon is always the first to finish his homework. Why does Chinese seem to be so easy for him?

Here me and Mike struggle to locate Chinese characters in our disorganized notes

Friday, September 12, 2008

Language

Shifu says that he's taught us enough Chinese to where we can put the words together to form sentences. We started doing this yesterday. We got into 2 groups Patrick and Ricardo in one group and Me, Mike and Jon in the other. We went back and forth taking turns talking to each other in Chinese. Chinese battling as I call it was alot of fun and easier than I had thought...my Chinese is really bad but I'm happy it seems like its getting better.

Now Shifu wants us to write 10 questions in both Pinyin and Chinese characters by tonight for when we battle each other tomorrow. Me and Mike are studying together trying to get this homework done and were having a hard time remembering and even locating all of the Chinese characters we need. Our notes are all over the place we are so disorganized. Pinyin...well my version of pinyin... isnt as hard for me as it used to be but characters are totally beyond me. As Mike and I are struggling to finish I look over at Jon and there he is relaxing on the computer. For some odd reason Jon doesnt seem to be having as hard a time with Chinese as everybody else...hmmmm....very suspicious.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Meditation

I want to update my blog more regularly but I don’t have as much time to write as I thought I would. With all the training, Chinese lessons, Qigong lessons, cooking and studying there doesn’t seem to be much free time left at the end of the day. And when its all done I’m usually so exhausted I just want to sleep. We’re supposed to go to sleep around 10 but I usually stay up between 11 and 12...My Chinese seems to be lagging so I stay up and study when I can.

We wake up just before 6am and then we meditate for about an hour. Dr. Yang has instructed us to locate our 2 centers, 1 located in our dantien and the other in our mind. This for me at least is definitely not an easy process. These past 2 weeks of meditation has revealed to me alot about myself. I am aware of how difficult it is to control my mind and maintain unbroken focus. Before I begin to try to locate my centers I first must bring my awareness on my breathing to calm down and slow my mind before I can go any deeper. But I find that I cant maintain this awareness for long. At first I am aware of my breathing and I get more relaxed and I seem to be getting somewhere but before I realize it my mind has wandered off and I start thinking about things…myself, the past, the future, other people, dreams, and everything else. Although I need my mind to stay focused, I find that these thoughts actually allow me to become aware of things about myself and situations in life that I hadn’t necessarily given much thought to otherwise. I become aware of how these different thoughts and circumstances have affected me in the past and continue to in the present. With these thoughts also come different emotions. Some pleasant and some not so much. When I am in meditation alone all by myself with no where to go but inward, I get deeper and more in touch with how I really feel about things. I seem to be unable to get closer to calming my mind until I resolve certain things and mental blocks within myself. Only then am I more relaxed and I feel I come closer to calming my mind. Although my mind needs to stay focused and calm and thinking isn’t necessarily the goal of meditation, I find that through this process of trying to control my mind I am actually coming to understand myself better.